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yourblogisqualitybecausetrisha:

No, I’m not trying to hate on Nancy this time. But I will pour my heart out instead.

This is how I see every Toru and Nancy pic.

I’m not trying to say that I deny her existence with this, I’m saying, I ONLY have eyes for Toru. When I see their pics, yes, I see it wholly as it is for a few seconds and think, “they look good together.”

I honestly think they do. And it hurt a lot at first. It still hurts until now. But then, I know it’s because I’m in love with Toru and the thought of him..being in a relationship, naturally anyone who is in a one sided love will be scared, right? I was aware of it the moment I accepted I fell for Toru.

But..that’s IT. I LOVE him. That’s why after the fear starts to grow weak, my eyes starts to zero in on Toru, and only Toru.

Each time I look at him, I always feel flustered. And it hasn’t changed, regardless of who he’s with — be it Nancy or anyone else. At first I thought, I was being masochistic for keeping all their pictures together and looking at it from time to time. But each time, I keep realizing, Toru is always the only one who captures my eyes.

I’m growing tired of thinking of Nancy: who she really is, how she met Toru, what kind of relationship they have with each other, if she’s Toru’s type. ~~I’d rather think of Toru tbh lol.~~ It doesn’t change anything. I won’t know. My own thoughts will just consume me and only me in the end.

That’s why I’d dismiss my thoughts of Nancy with just this: I love Toru. Nothing else should matter to me. As long as I see him doing well, I’ll be happy.

P.S. sorry for ruining your pics Nancy, I’m just making a point. Lol.